Blood dont mean family

# BLOOD DON'T MEAN FAMILY

*Emotional Melodic Rap / Pain Hip-Hop*

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They say family is everything...

But what happens when your own family makes you feel alone?

Two brothers, a whole family, same blood...

Yet somehow I'm the one left outside.

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I wake up every morning with a war inside my head,

Trying to escape the life and all the things I did.

I promise I'm done, swear I'll never go again,

But addiction pulls me backwards, and I'm fighting once again.

I got a good heart buried underneath my mistakes,

A thousand dreams and ambitions that I'm desperate to chase.

But every door I knock on remembers my past,

Like I'm forever the person who could never change at last.

I don't need a shortcut, I don't need a throne,

I just need an opportunity to stand on my own.

Give me work, give me purpose, give me somewhere to start,

There's still a good man underneath this broken heart.

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Two brothers, same blood, but we're strangers today,

I see them helping everybody while I'm pushed away.

They've got kindness for strangers, compassion to spare,

But when their own brother needs them, nobody's there.

And it's not just my brothers, my whole family's the same,

They see my addiction, they remember my shame.

I watch them give others the chances I need,

While I'm begging for an opportunity to get back on my feet.

I don't want their money, I don't want their name,

I just wish they'd see a man beyond his mistakes.

I don't hate them, that's what makes it hurt,

I just wanted my family when my whole world got worse.

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Blood don't mean family when nobody's there when you fall,

I've been fighting my own demons, feeling alone through it all.

I don't need somebody to carry me,

I just need a chance to prove.

That the man you see today isn't the man I'm fighting to lose.

I've got a wife, I've got a daughter,

I've got reasons to believe.

I don't need the world to love me,

Just give me a chance to breathe.

Don't close the door, don't count me out,

There's still a man inside this doubt.

I know I can be better,

I just need a chance to show it now.

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My past is like a prison, every record is a chain,

Every opportunity disappears because of yesterday.

I had potential, I had purpose, I had plans,

But nobody wants to take a risk on this man.

I'm tired of relapsing, tired of the shame,

Tired of apologizing and repeating the same.

I hate what addiction has turned me into,

I wanna feel alive without needing something to get through.

I know good intentions aren't enough to make things right,

I know trust takes time, and change takes a fight.

But how can I rebuild when nobody lets me begin?

How can I prove I'm better when nobody lets me in?

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To my wife, I'm sorry for the pain you endure,

You deserve a peaceful life, a love that's secure.

And my little girl, you're the reason I stay,

I wanna watch you grow and be there every day.

I don't want you remembering a father who gave up,

I wanna earn your trust, even when the road gets rough.

I can't promise perfection, but I want to make a change,

I wanna be someone you can be proud to call by name.

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To my brothers, to my family,

I never wanted to be your disappointment.

I know I've made mistakes,

But I wish you hadn't given up on me.

I wasn't asking you to save me...

I was hoping you'd believe in me.

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Blood don't mean family, I've learned that through the years,

Sometimes the people closest are the ones who disappear.

But I won't let rejection be the reason that I fall,

I'm still somebody, I'm still worth it, I'm not finished after all.

I don't need somebody to carry me,

I just need a chance to prove.

I've got a wife, I've got a daughter,

I've got so much left to do.

I'm more than my past, more than my shame,

I'm still fighting to reclaim my name.

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I can't change yesterday.

I can't force anyone to understand.

I'm somebody's husband.

I'm somebody's father.

I'm still somebody's son.

I'm not asking to be rescued.

I'm asking for a chance to fight.

And this time...

I'm fighting for myself.