Worst Enemy, Doing Fine

Smile in the mirror

Same old script

Same lines

Coffee cup

Cracked handle

Say I'm good

"yeah

I'm doing fine"

Sun through the curtains

Gold on a cluttered floor

Outside looks so simple

Inside's a closing door

I'm doing fine

That's what I say

Sun keeps rising on my face each day

But under this skin

It's a hurricane

I am my worst enemy

In my own way

Yeah

I'm doing fine

That's what they see

But every mile I walk

I trip on me

Laugh it off like everything's okay

I am my worst enemy

Every single day

Friends say I'm "so steady"

"Wish I had your calm"

They don't see the late nights

Pacing circles in my palms

I write plans on paper

Then tear them edge to edge

Build a ladder in my head

Kick it from the ledge

I'm doing fine

That's what I say

Sun keeps rising on my face each day

But under this skin

It's a hurricane

I am my worst enemy

In my own way

Yeah

I'm doing fine

That's what they see

But every mile I walk

I trip on me

Laugh it off like everything's okay

I am my worst enemy

Every single day

Who would I be

If I called a truce with me?

If I let one kind thought

Grow like a seed

Can I be more

Than this quiet war inside?

Just wanna breathe

Just wanna take my own side

I'm doing fine

That's what I say

Sun keeps rising on my face each day

But under this skin

It's a hurricane

I am my worst enemy

In my own way

Yeah

I'm doing fine

That's what they see

But every mile I walk

I trip on me

Maybe one day I'll be more than "okay"

Till then I'm my enemy

Learning not to hate